The Escape Artist

I am not a robot.

I'm so sick of picking up shit and still being the black sheep.
You want me to be there/here for you, but who's going to be there/here for me?
Do I save my sanity, save a life and lose you?
Or do I save your sanity, lose two lives but save yours?

On all counts, being practical means going. Being emotional is staying.

How am I supposed to help you when I'm not going to be strong enough to save myself if I stay?

Why can't you fight your own battles?

Why can't he be the one leaving?

Have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me
-- Rainbow Connection

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I can feel you drifting like a piece of wreckage at the mercy of the sea. But I won't interfere. I understand that it helps you somehow to shift blame onto someone else so you can deal, and if that has to be me...then ok. If I can't help you in any other way other than be the scapegoat...then ok. But I do wish you'd see the path ahead of you, I fear you may have reached your reserve tank and your own self-importance has limited what you'll be able to learn form this point on. But what do I know, I know nothing right?

Linking up the signs

Now that all that unpleasantness is over and done with, let's talk about changing the world. Go on, say yes.

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
well, the true way to learn is to sacrifice your life to something...in some way
all the best artists at that studio, well one of the business people upstairs was like, oh they have no life but..they're happy with that. that's their life, their art and then..the same could be said of the same business person who said that to me anyway lol, cause she spends all her time networking and to me, that's like, wow, no life

[char] antidisestablishmentarianism is the second longest english word. says:
but you see, it's a case of what you're willing to sacrifice. you don't always have to be forlorn and morose to succeed or be an artist

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
lol of course not

[char] antidisestablishmentarianism is the second longest english word. says:
that's just a myth perpertuated by sadists who didn't want to see the world happy haha

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
you're good at what u do cause u do it all the time anyway

[char] antidisestablishmentarianism is the second longest english word. says:
haha, what am i good at? sorry, but applegirl hss left me needing assurance

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
stories. bridging people, and that's a valuable skill

[char] antidisestablishmentarianism is the second longest english word. says:
so sad right...to want to be assured i'm a geek. aiyoh..charlene charlene, you have weird insecurities

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
yeah very weird la

[char] antidisestablishmentarianism is the second longest english word. says:strange that you mentioned bridging people. tristan said the same thing the other day when i was talking to vicknesh at his film screening. we were talking about his new project and i was like, oh..i can try to help you. and tris was like, yes! she very good at that and i said in jest, i am ah? i should make a career out of it. and tris said, yes you should! really! and i told him it was kind of strange coz a day or two before we were picking value cards at nat's baha'i meeting and i got unity and now, you mention it again. like out of the blue with no knowledge of what has transpired before. *goosebumps* but yes, you can continue trying to prod my self-esteem now. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHa

The Dreamforge; Museborn Shield, Soulsworn Steel says:
LOL. hahaaa just continue doing what u do, and try to get paid for it.

Setting life in motion

Visionary Philosopher
Your IQ Score is: 133

Your mind's strengths allow you to think ahead of the game — to imagine or anticipate what should come next in just about any situation. Because you're equally skilled in the numerical and verbal universes of the brain, you can draw from multiple sources of information to come up with great ideas. The timelessness of your vision and the balance between your various skills are what make you a Visionary Philosopher.

In addition to your strengths in math and linguistics, you have a knack for matching and anticipating patterns. These skills and your uncanny ability to detect the underlying blueprint of most of life's situations add to your Visionary Philosopher mind. Two philosophers who share the same combination of skills you possess are Plato and Benedict Spinoza. Spinoza had insight into how things worked in the world. He could envision a future based on the patterns he saw in life, and used mathematical logic as a structure within which to present his philosophical arguments. With that base he was able to use logic to formulate his theories. Borrowing from his linguistic strengths he wrote eloquent texts and, therefore, was able to bring his philosophical ideas and structure to the rest of the world. His story exemplifies the talents that are present in the Visionary Philosopher intellectual type.

Whatever you decide to do in life, you've got a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a wide variety of ways. You can expand your mind to understand a situation. Your strong balance of math and verbal skills will help you explain things to others. For example, if you were on an archaeological dig and discovered an object, you could probably use your deductive powers to figure out not only what the object was but also how it was used. Given your ability to put things together, you are more than capable of inventing a life plan that is in synch with your perspective on how things were, how they are, and how they might be one day.


Descriptive Classifications of Intelligence Quotients

IQ Description % of Population
130+ Very superior 2.2%
120-129 Superior 6.7%
110-119 High average 16.1%
90-109 Average 50%
80-89 Low average 16.1%
70-79 Borderline 6.7%
Below 70 Extremely low 2.2%


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"you're so busy changing the world
but just one smile could change all of mine
we share the same soul"
-- Jack Johnson's Angel

Just for the record

This year, I will:
- get my tattoo
- clear my main debts
- learn the guitar
- advance my malay
- refresh my spanish
- be diligent in my studies
- go on a trip
- move on in my spiritual journey
- be more motivated to leave the house
- walk Casey more
- live, dance, sing and love more