Sitting beside myself and not liking it

Think think think
Think of brightly coloured nail polish
In all its orgasmic shades
Think of matching your shoes to your bag
Think of that totally cute guy
Think of everything else but what you are

Numb yourself against your thoughts
Pin them so they do not move
Twirl your hair so that the action distracts you
Hide behind what you drink just so you have a moment's peace

Buy yourself company so you're not alone
Read a book so you're occupied
Dance so you fly
Sing so you don't hear
Do something
Anything

Just don't let yourself be consumed in the images of your mind



And in the midst of the rejection of my thoughts, my brother chases me off the PC and tells me to watch the whole season of CSI so I won't be alone.

So he can play his game.

I love my brother and his sense of timing.